Growing Up

Many things have changed in this past 1 1/2 years
I'm done with my studies,
I miss student life tremendously
Growing up SUCKS!!!
There are so many things you have to handle once you're all grown up, especially once you're done with studies

You have to worry bout finding a proper job, earning money on your own
It's not easy, I must say
No more depending on daddy and mummy for $$
I feel like our life is planned out for us, it's like a system

You grow up, go to school, college...
You graduate, find a job
Settle down, raise your kids
Retire and grow old

It's the pathway towards all that the difficult part
Anyhows.....
like I say I'm done with my studies
so I'm currently looking for a job in Singapore

I did have a job in Singapore
But I resigned, the place was a nightmare
The working hours was horrible
I was constantly falling really, really sick
Those type where the doctor take one look at you and give you a 2 days MC kinda sick
I was losing weight and energy and I look so pale
I was emotionally and physically worn out
Until one day, I've decided that I can't no longer harm my poor body and RESIGNED

So here I am:- JOBLESS & INCOMELESS
Being away from home is difficult
I get homesick very, very often
I'm constantly finding myself tearing and crying
I always look at myself in the mirror and tell myself to GROW UP and STOP crying
Start acting like an adult and stop acting like a child
But it's hard, every time I call home or I think bout home, I'll automatically tear up

That is why I've decided to blog again
To write what I feel so I won't get into depression

*SIGH*

the pathway towards uncertainty